My Life in March (100th post!)

This week I worked very hard, packing my days full of productivity, parading through the school , hitting the gym etc. However it still seems that there is too little time to get everything I need to get done done! A geography paper and project, a phil assignment, an economics assignment, a enviro project and paper and the worst.. a poli sci paper. Then all the readings that seem to steal my time away from everything else, and then catch up in readings that I have missed or haven't been paying attention to from this semester because we haven't been tested on them. Then joy of all joys; exams in April.

Yesterday was the first day of the weekend and boy did I ever veg out. Wasted the whole thing. Stayed up late Thursday night with Louis (3ish?) and then slept in until 2pm. Then did nothing at all that day except for go to the grocery store. At 8 I started getting ready for a party Ange and I were invited to on Wellington. It was a Mustache and Cleavage party, so pumped up the breasts and went down there. Ugh. Everyone was so drunk and messy! I hate house parties haha. So we left and I washed off my make up and showed Louis my outfit. He was pretty impressed. I told him I would wear it out when he comes. I must say, I'm pretty impressed with how it looks myself! Ow ow ow!! Long legs, not a lot of noticable tummy fat, tonnes of cleavage.. I wore legging under it the other night, but if I am brave enough when he comes out I might go without.

Louis was supposed to come out next weekend but last night he told me things had changed... this is incredabely disappionting... I thought I was going to cry when he told me that he and his friends couldn't come until the 27th now.. Why is it when I actually get excited about something these things happen? None the less I've descided to deal with it positively, at least he is still coming out!

When he and his friends arrive Friday we will hit the bars, they will crash here, and Saturday morning I have planned to make them an amazing brunch. I want to be the perfect hostess. I'm going to clean the house and make everything really comfortable and cozy. Depending on how many come I don't know where I will put them.. I was thinking I'd give two the couches and make up Kate lynns bed for whoever elese there is. Louis will stay in my room ahha.. He says I get a massage the first night he's here, but other then fooling around we'll draw a line for the first night. The second night it's a hotel room and the madness begins.

Last nightI had many guilty dreams which only reflected how ashamed I am of slacking off every weekend. I was telling lonely truck drivers that I don't work hard enough at school and swimming around in an ugly one-peice bathing suit at a resort with Tiffany and thinking how badly I need to lose weight. *sigh* At one point I was speaking to a prof telling them how behind I was in my studies, I said, "AND I have a course in Chinese that I haven't even showed up to yet, or opened the book for !!". I remeber this shock of panic went through me , like "damn, I have a course in Chinese, fuck!!".

Oh well it's a nice day and I'll hopefully go for a jog after cleaning the kitchen, then shower, then clean my room and then get to school work.

Peace